Loooking out from the darkness

update

2009-04-15T14:07:25Z

Easter was good

Ryan turned 21 on Monday. So we went out with his dad and had 2 32 ounce Yingalings. Lol I was typse when I was almost done with my 1st glass

Seen Twilight and it it such a good movie. Cant wait ot see the rest.

at work

2009-03-16T20:56:21Z

I've always had the problem of people remembering my name but me not remembering theirs. I know what people look like and know if I know them by looking at them,but names I can never remembering.

lets catch you mothas up to speed!

2009-03-14T00:33:09Z

Maybel had her paried for like 2 weeks. So we got to get her fixed asap. Frost is plucking feathers again:(

I always drive to work in the morning and then Ryan will drive home. Well depending on how late I'm running I'l park the car near the door and run in while Ryan jumps over and goes to park the car.

Keep in mind our parking lot is almost a long circle and it breaks in half for cars to cross too. Well some girl hoonked her horn for us to move months back.Yeah right what ever.

so

on Wednesday I'm jumping out and that bitch starts blaring on her horn and yells"you guys do this every day" Ryan yelled at her and I said"no we don't I haven't done it for the past few days" she yelled something and I said"you can go pull around back there""No I can't I HAVE to park in the economy parking" this bitch car pooled. So we argue a little bit and I stand right in front of her car and say"fuck you" and flick her off. She said "give me your name and agency,I'll find were you sit" as she pulled away I said "well maybe if you left earlier you wouldn't have this problem bitch" as she was parking tha car she yelled "you stay right there I want your name and agency,and I'm reporting you. Well I was going to be late so I just walked in and sat down. I thought about taking down my name tage at my desk but didnt. She ran over and said"ok I got your name" took off running so Ryan and I run after her. She starts yelling in my department wanting my supervisor who wasn't there but the higher up people try to help her.

She went in screaming and in a storm of furry and told on me. The lady couldn't even understand her

So I get an email from the agency lady and I went and spoke with her. A eye wittnes had went and told her that they seen everything and that the woman was crazy. Ryan had gone and told her that story. So by the time it came to me she laughed it off and told me just to pull around the side a little more. Every one who knew that girl said she had gone crazy this past month for some reason.

Then today I let Maybel jump up on the bed"thinking that maybe she wouldnt get blood on our brand new down kingsize comfiter" and sure enough she got a little rub mark on it. Then I let Frost fly in for a sec and he shit on it a half a second before I got him.

so that pissed me off.

Now I'm trying to gihre out what to do for dinner.

boy have I got a stories to tell you

2009-03-13T20:52:21Z

HowManyOfMe.com

There are
7
people with my name in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

well I can tell you I am one and my dads another so that knocks out 2. and for Braziers there was only like 3,000 something. I guess were dyeing out?

and I'll update with my stories later

I was looking through my user pics

2009-02-21T18:08:20Z

I was looking through my user pics and noticed this pic I have set to my have up for me today.

Who would of though that about 1 and a half years later I'd have a tattoo on that side of my stamic?

I know I had always though it would be cool back when this pic was taken. I think I've had the tattoo on my sotmic now for about 2 years come March? It seems like the day after I got it done I went to a bird show with some friends and wore my pajama pants because it would have hurt to have worn blue jeans.

Idk just a little fun fact for the day.

heya

2009-02-18T01:46:02Z

I'm alive and well and I'll be updating some other time lol.

I've started to get back on aim latley. for the past week almost every night I've been getting on. My aim name is UtilityanPizzazz

Heya !

2008-08-01T02:00:15Z

I'm still alive and here. I'll update soon. I've just been bussy with life,working a full time job,paying bills (like rent,car insurance,car payment and in some cases college).

But I'll be back soon to update.

Update

2008-05-27T21:04:30Z

So the past few weeks I've been working over time. It just ended last friday. Last week I did over time from monday to thursday. I didn't agree to friday by mistake but I'm glad I didn't. I worked the 1st 2 weeks (out of 4 weeks) from either 7am to 8pm or 8am to 8pm 5 days a week. Then the last two I was just fed up and wanted to go home so I'd do a hour or so of over time everyday but that was about it.

Out of all the over time money we paid for half of our new king size bed, going back to college and I bought my self a SunSpell doll(Its like a pre She-ra doll)

Fire and Frost are doing fine. Frost loves to cuddel and always giving Ryan kisses. When ever Frost sees Frie taking off and flying around the apartment he thinks its either a game or he's being mean to her, cause he jump right of the cage swup down close to the ground and back up and try to fly into her. You'd have to see it to get the drift of it.

This past sunday Sam(a Sam here in PA,her bf Tony,Ryan and I went to the flee market. For those of you who don't know I collect Jem And The Holograms and She-ra stuff. Well I seen a bin full of dolls and Ran over to look and Found A Geri Halliwell(Ginger Spice) and Mel C(Sporty Spice) and some clothes to go with them. Geris clothes are the harder to find type but I was able to complete her from that bin and get some of the extras that they didn't have dolls for. Then Found a Mel B(Scary Spice) doll later.So that was cool. Ryan found a Megan Man and a few other things too.

Later that sunday I was at the SuperMarket getting some food,drinks and what not(Ryan was home not feeling good). I was in the clod and flu isel and as I walked away a woman in her 50s or 60s said "I like your dragon". I said oh thank you and showed her the one on my back thats a tribal dragon,then showed her the one on my stomic and explaned thw whole planet,birth stone and solar system thing to her. After that I walked away and was walking by again and she stoped me and said what's your sisters sign,I said Cancer and she wanted to know my moms and dads,and how they felt about us being Wiccan and the stars and if my sister was into charts . I said she try'ed numroalige(sp). She said she likes to do peoples charts who ever she meets. Then she went on to say how she keeps meeting people who she makes a connection and she just meet a guy who's "30 YEARS TO YOUNG".She then looked up to the ceiling and said "this isn't how it was supposed to be you guys" and that how she finds people just starting in there career and shes just starting her 2nd one lol.

needless to say after we parted I was scared to walk around the store and get the rest of the stuff I came for lol. But she didn't pop out any where

been working over time

2008-05-06T18:38:16Z

hello every one. I've been doing over time for almost 3 weeks now,nearly every day. But my paychecks are almosted doubled. I'll post more soon when I'm not too bussy

UP Date

2008-03-12T00:11:41Z

UP DATE

Ryan and I have been doing really well. Feb was a very bussy month for us. WE had moms bots birthday(Heathers) then on FEB 6th seen the Spice Girls LIVE On there world tour in NY! The show was amazing and theyre so good live. They really put on a great show. Then FEB9th that weekend we got a new car.Feb 11th Ryan stayed home from work and threw me a suprise 22nd birthday party.. From there we had v-day,another Spice Girlsa concert in Philly PA the 19th ,Ryans moms birthday(Sue) and Shanes going away party(Ryans Brother is going back for a 3rd tour).

The apartment is coming along very nicely. Its a lot of fun finding stuff,like 2nd had or even at Target and the doller store just to put around the house. I'm no loger driving my old car. were just trying to figure out what to do with it. Work is going good,but I'm looking ot move on to a diffrent company so I'll no loger be a constent temp.They've been having me go around and set up desks for the new people,copy and scaning,filing ect. I really can't wait to go back to college and start making better money. I'm thinking I'll end up going back this summer and attend bucks.

thats pretty mucn about it for now.

Rabbit

2008-02-27T00:26:49Z

so some one at work posted a rabbit for adoption and I've been emailing the woman about it. I do want it,but I'm unsure about it. Its about 2 to 3 years old, is potty trained,comes with cage,toys ect. Nothing has been said about a price yet so I'm thinking free.

then a few more updates. Ryan threw me a suprise 22bday party on my bday(feb 11th) I'll put pics up soon and we also got a new car the saturday before that. pics to come soon of that too.

Hello

2008-02-21T03:19:15Z

Hi every one I'm still alive and kicking. I've been bussy/too lazy to update in a while lol. But I will up date over the weekend non the least(I hope ) lol.

Things

2007-11-07T02:17:47Z

this past Halloween was fun. I was excited for it. The weeks leading up to Halloween was fun. Ryan and I found a Rock N Crul Jem doll for $2.29 so we snaged that up. On Halloween Ryan and I played hookie from work,went over to his moms and carved pumpkins. They both turned out really good. I'll post pics later. We thne went with Sam and Tony to a hunted abanden jail in Philly. The one with the famuos guy? lol. The lady on the torlly ride to the place mus thave been drunck cause she was acting goofy as hell. and some one on the bus said somthing in the jail about droping the soap and she had no clue what it meant. The place was fun but I wouldnt go back for a few years. Halloween just isnt what it used to be when we where all kids. Barley any one was out on the streets wearing customes. But shit now adays with all the kidnappings and such I dont blame them.

Then Ryan skipped out on a half a day of work to come suprise me with a suprise picnic. That was really sweet.

The Spice Girls come out with the Greatest Hits album the day we move into our apartment. So were going to go get that and then move some stuff in and start staying.

The Spice Girls new video came out. Its ok,but I was expacting somthing much better. I'm not fond of how theyre advertising Victoria Secret in the video.

Then in a little over two weeks Ryan and I will be back in Michigan for Thanksgiving weekend. I'm really exicted to see eevry one again because I miss them like crazy.

Then Ryans been getting me into Godzilla.

so heres a update after a while

2007-10-09T00:33:37Z

Ryan and I have our apartment and where moving in November 15th.

So the Spice Girls are back. And Ryan knew how much I love them(as a group and solo). Ryan and I where planing on buying tickets for the concert in New York(only 2 hours away from where we are in Pennsylvania). Well about a week or two ago they took New York off on the Tour. So Ryan while at work last thursday went and BOUGHT tickets to the Los Vegus show,plan tickets and then his co worker Sue had a time share we could use for the hotel. So he sent me a text message at work saying he had somthing to tell me. Well it worried me so shorty after was my break and I called him and he told me. I was shocked cause he looked up the coast of everything and it was $1200 somthing. So after my break I go back and Ryan sent me a text message saying that they had New York back up on the map and asked if he could cancel everthing and I said yes of course. So my poor baby sat on the phone for over two hours canceling everything. He said he wanted to cry after he seen that and did everything just before. So now New York is back up on the map but says dates comming soon. So were checking the site like no other threw the day.

Friday morning Geri Halliwell was on GMTV(Good Morning T.V) In the U.K She talked about the Reunion Tour,the Greates Hits Album coming out November 12th and the brand New single called "HEADLINES". And she said that the tour was going to be like a piece of theathuer and will have kinda of like a story line too it. So I can't wait for that.

November Ryan and I are going back to Michigan for Thanksgiving. Then Friday going Black Friday shopping with everyone. Then saturday I don't know and sunday probley taking off uber early like we did last time. Its a 11-12 drive. I'm only doing it to bring my birds and what ever else I may have left in Michigan. I'll never drive there again. Only fly after this trip.

Saturday Ryan and I went to the Hair Cuttery(I think thats what they call it) and it had a line and a 20 min wait. I didnt want ot wait that long. When I had called them they made it sound like they had no line. So we went home and I had Ryan cut my hair. He did a really good job. Hes only cut his own hair before. But I look a lot like my little brother Aaron with shorter hair. I don't think I've had it this short in a while. It's still slightly long.

Yesterday/sunday was a lot of fun. Ryan,me,Heather and Megan(Ryans best friends mom and sister) went to out fest in Philly. It was nothing but a gaint party. They had like flee market street,food,stages and games on one of the stages and Kareoke was the other. If they had Wanna Be by the Spice Girls I would have done it. Even if I couldn't have found some one to be Geri I would have had the audince do it .

Hmm other then that nothing too new. I'm picking up a little of over time at work. Ryans getting hired on with ETS the 15th of this month and he'll get a boost in pay so thats great. ETS is cross trained me today. So now I can take calls with PSAT and AP. Which is a good sign that they'll at least extend my contract.

Ok I'm done for now until somthing else pops up that I should add.

I love and miss you all

buh bye.

hmmmm

2007-09-02T02:30:15Z

I'm thinking of doing a post soon. I'll think about it but more then likly I'll do it tomorrow or over the weekend.

my 1st day at ETS

2007-08-24T21:32:48Z

My 1st day working for ETS(Educational Testing Services) was traning. And I'm being Trained tell next thrusday in a room. Then Friday we got out on the floor. That class is so fucking boring. But it seems easy too. But they might end up cross traning me too from what mombot/Adams mom/Heather told me. I dressed up and what not. I had my picture taken for my badge and I got it that day too after the training class. Not ever one gets them that quick. The cool thing is Ryan and I have the same work schedual so we can car pool and have lunch together. And todays friday so thats about it.

Looking for

2007-08-21T20:01:07Z

I'm also looking for a loos nude Shana with bad hair,missing pluges ect and a Danse,Jetta or Clash .

again send me a email if you have these please.

Here I be

2007-08-16T19:01:12Z

so this week hasnt been the greatest to begin with. Monday Morning Casey(Ryans stpe mom) ran out to get milke before she left for work. Ryan and I where sleeping and we both sot straight up to a dog yelping. Right then and theyre you just knew. I just got up and ran out theyre to look and I seen Ralf(one of the familys Astrailen Shepereds) So I ran back in But Casey ran in threw the other door and yeled to Ryan to wake up that she hit Ralf. His two back legs where broke and they had to have him put down later that day. I fell bad for every one here. I think most of all I feel the worst for Casey and Robby(thats how they spell her name). I just cant get her screaming and tears and how she must feel every day.:(

I've been turing in apps and getting interviews. The thing is most places arnt quit hiring yet untile the college studendts go back and what not. Luckly dad sent me some money. Other then that nothing really. I hope every one is doing well back in Michigan and wish them the best. I feel bad for Fire and Frost cause dad says hes only had a about an hour worth of out/play time from theyre cage. Other then that nothing really new.

Tomorrow Ryan<3 and I are going to go to a thrifet store we've been to 3 times and it was closed cause we either just missed it or they decied to close the saturday after we tryed theyre. We went theyre the 2nd time cause the sign had said they where open saturday from like 10am to 3pm or somthing. We get theyre and they put a fucking sign up saying now closed saturday. What the Fuck. Ok Im done now .

And I've got to give a shot out to my Pimpmama Sam who had her baby boy Alex last week. Congratz again Sam. In case any ones wondering I'm talking about the Sam that I worked at petsmart with.

ok now Im done for real. good bye and I love you guys.

Hi every one

2007-08-15T18:34:58Z

I'm still alive. I've got a head ack and under the weather so I'll update later today or tomorrow.

Some updates and what nots

2007-08-06T16:24:13Z

so I've had my surgery over a month ago and I'll have been living in PA for over a month come the 15th of Augest I think? I've been looking for a job and theres more here then in MI. I've kinda got a good feeling this week about landing a job. I've been driving around here and there and I know some parts of the area now. Poor Ryans been buying almost everything for me because I have very limited low money. I feel bad and I told him yesterday and he said I can take him on a really nice date when I get a job and what not.

I miss every one tho,so if you think I dont I really do.

well I'm going to go for a bit. I'll update in a few days to roughly a week.

Heya

2007-07-30T20:06:07Z

Nothing to new here . Ryans dad,step mom and two step sisters are gone for a few days so its nice to have the house to our selfs. Yesterday Ryan and I went to a Old colletable toy store that that was really cool. I got some He-man stuff and a She-ra. They had some Jem dolls but I already had them. And no Mosters In My Pocket for Ryan:( but he did fine 2 Might Max playsets so thats cool.

Had a couple of job interviews last week. One to be a telemarkiter(dont want) which luckly I didnt get.It was the apointment maker one that I made a post about before . Then a interview with Bed Bath And Beyond. I turned in resumes and applactions too. One was to work at a shipping place full time and the other few where for a few Vet Offices and one other one I cant remeber.

Ryan and I filmed Momo and Terters Crib yesterday but one computer doesnt have fire wire and the other two lap tops just wont do it. So hopfully soo that will be up.

nothing really other then that.

abirdseyevideo @ 2007-07-25T10:36:00

2007-07-25T14:36:05Z

So I had a dream I had a email back from the video guy I sent my resume and demoreel too. So when I woke up and went to the computer. I didnt have a email from the video guy but from a add in the paper that I emailed my resume too for a appointment setter. the interview is at noon and its about 24 minutes away from the house. So its my 1st time venturing out with out Ryan or any one. Im not scared or worried really. I printed out directions from mapquest both ways just to be safe so I dont get mixed up on the way coming back. I just looked up the company and it looks pretty big with a decent chain in the USA. And on Yahoo it said $10 to $14 an hour. I hope this isnt some kind of scam.

I've been having trouble sleeping lately. I have no idea why. I toss and turn and been having nightmares most nigths too. So tonight more then likly I'll take some tylone pm to help me sleep. Other then that nothing really new.

well I've got to go get ready. I'll keep every one updated.

ouch,randome notes here and there

2007-07-04T15:48:38Z

I had my herina taken care of this monday. Damn is it ever pain full. You'r almost scared to move. I got sick on the way home from the hospital,mom gave me the free puck pan but I knew that wouldnt cut it so I grabed my dads trash bag. I made it to the couch ok. I hadnt been home 5 hours and a neighber is coming in and bugging me to help him with his camera when I feel better. Then yesterday the same thing,Jessus Christ I hadnt been out of the hospital 24 hours leave me the fuck alone!

when I was in the hospital before the surgery they wrote yes on my right leg and then a guy came in a shaved me clean. He was a tad rought too. Then the goofy bastered called me Mr.Russ. I said "I'm sorry " and he said somthing about me getting a kick out of him calling me MR. Idk he was really hard to understand.

They put me out in the surgery room,and I woke up at the very end of it too when they were finishing up. I was moving my feet in the recovery room,but my chest to my feet where numb. I got back to the room my mom and dad where at and after a while I started shacking. I was in pain too. They gave me some morphine and that didnt help at all.

So Im moving the 15th. Im really excited and Ryan is too. I've got a little bit packed. And dads going to get my car up to snuff for PA.

Then I only have one more chapter of the 5th Harry Potter book"order of the phoniex" to read. When I told that to Samantha she ran upstars ,brought it back down and started reading it to me. She even did some English voices too.

I might go to the movies tonight,it depends on how Im feeling.

I love you Ryan<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

and to James Bowers if you read this. Quit sexual herasing my sister online you sick mother fucker. You've been band from the high school for it. You think you'd learn you fucking pervert!

I had the best weekend ever

2007-05-30T01:34:23Z

I went out to PA for the holiday weekend . It nevere really hit me until I got on the plan to PA from Detroit and util I seen Ryan. I was walking to meet up with Ryan right past security and he pulled me around this coner to give me a kiss and then from behind his back he pulled out a gaint rose. We go to his truck after we get my luggage from bagge clame. He has a black bag with bright green tissue paper in it(colors of the wicked witch). To my suprise theres a card,a Wicked book,a Jem belt,a drawing of She-ra,Swift Wind and She-ra sword and head band that he drew for me.
That was friday night .

Saturday

Ryan,Sam(one of Ryans best friends)and I went to the Columbus fle market in Newjersy. Found some He-man/She-ra villans. Ryan bought 2 for me and I bought Teela and Adam. We then went over to his moms and stayed for a bit and watched some old home videos. We then went to his dads and I got to meet every one there. His twin step sisters are full of energy. Ashley is an amazing artist. Best Ive seen for any high school student. And Christin is the life of the party. His step mom Casey is cool and very in depth with description and his dad is wacky and fun like him. We all went out to eat at a place called Bug-A-Boo Creek. Great food. I had a plate of supurb bbq n chicken nackoes. They hand Mose and Buffloe head on the wall, It was a kick ass place.

Sunday

We went to Hong Kong King Buffet for lunch/breakfest. Then went and seen Shrek 3. It was a good movie. Then we went to Barns And Nobel for a while. Then after that Ryan got a "PHONE CALL" and we had to run by his moms. Well he suprised me with a candel lit dinner,and wine. He had me fooled haha<3

Monday We went over to his Nanas. He had told me before that she played video games with a snes. What I pictured was totally diffrent. She sat right there and played Mega Man with Ryan and I and she knew where to go,what to get and how to do this and that. I got to meet most of his moms side of the family that day. I was due to fly out that night around 7:44pm but the check in lady wouldnt let me threw with 20minutes before the plane left. I could have made it to damn it. So I had to get a flight for the next morning at 6:15am. So I got to spend a extra day with Ryan:) He bought us a HOOGIE(ITS A SUB) and a coke/SODA and lemonaid. He cheered me up and made me feel better. We got another night at the hotel.

Tuesday/today

We took off around 5:20 am? after I made it to secruity Ryan and I kissed good bye and I just made it to the plan.

Ryan gives me so much motavation and inspartion every day, I can never give him anof credit.

I love you Ryan Patrick Gibbons

heres the run down

2007-05-24T02:25:03Z

I told dad . He was fine with it. Got my blood work done finally.
The lady took 3 viles. I was suprised cause it was very quick. Went to moms and Adaraina had the cops called on her for suposively talking smack to other little girls. I dont know. Mom was out there the whole time I was there. So I took a nap. I'll just go over tomorrow now. She wanted me to visit before my flight friday night.

Cook out tomorrow at work so that will be cool. Thats all at the moment.